Sunday, June 24, 2007

Been A While


Can't say i'm lying.

I really do miss this place!

Many a thing have changed, i've even cheated on this blog, and opened other blogs. But my heart remains at this place...or as a poet once said :

ما الحب غير الحب الأول

aaaanyways ...i've posted a recent photograph of myself with one of my many beautiful friends ...hoping that she'll catch your eye ...and attract you into this newborn occasion of writing!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

On Political Attempts (Part One)
The Decemberists Are Here
“Revolutions are the locomotives of history.”
Karl Marx
There is nothing more inspiring for a change seeker like me, than the image of hordes of people gathered around a certain cause, a belief, a will to change! What I saw on the first of December, what I see everyday on the street, is a reverberation of consistent stubbornness! I am a man who advocates the toppling of all the governments of the world. Not just the Lebanese government. But I have also grown to be a man of reason. I have been staying up all night, thinking, and rethinking, to the point that it makes no sense not to jot down what I have to say, and all of you have to hear me, Not just me, but a wide spectrum of people who I hope would feel the same.

On The Decemberists:
I will keep referring to those who attended, and are attending the massive demonstration on Friday, and the continuous sit-in as the Decemberists. It would have been great to see that amount of people getting together to protest the inflation, the increase in Taxi prices, the increase in academic institutions’ tuition fees, the increase in so on and so forth. Yet they are rallying to topple the current government.

GREAT! I would be glad to participate in any activity to topple any government in the Middle East, yet if we take a more comprehensive approach to why they want to topple that government, one is to be disgusted! Sarcastically enough, most leaders in that opposition are the major titles of corruption, lies and deceit. One of them, however, is marketed as the Holy Spirit, god on earth, a leader who drives his followers through charisma and faith! To that, Nietzsche would reply: “A casual stroll through the lunatic asylum shows that faith does not prove anything.”

It seems like the beginning of a revolution, I don’t mind! But any revolution is impossible without a revolutionary situation; furthermore, not every revolutionary situation leads to revolution! (Lenin). Where are the revolutionary situations? They do exist. People are willing for a stronger state, a better socio-economical welfare state. The educational sector needs change, the extreme poverty on the outskirts of our cities are in dangerous levels..etc. And what is exactly the opposition aiming for? Greed and Power! What are the slogans of the “revolutionary” demonstrators? Most are sectarian and racist! (same as those of the governments’ supports by the way!)

People are still arguing on who had more people on the streets. Not that they realize that each time a demonstration in this country (under these conditions) has more people, it becomes more and more alarming! I would not trust nor have faith in a demonstration according to its numbers, when a hundred men stand together, each of them loses his mind and gets another one, as Nietzsche argues!

What is to be done, when you have teenagers instead of politicians, in a country crippled by wars, economic break-downs, theft, tribalism and the like? The problem is that no reasonable person would be able to take sides in the ongoing political duel.

The Decemberists are here, they are the new revolutionaries. I had criticized the Cedars Revolution for the same exact reasons, and now it’s the Decemberists turn. Are we really encompassed by the same exact politicians who exchange power like a viscous circle? Where is the alternative? What is to be done?It is almost Christmas, a showdown between Cedars and Decemberists is about to escalate. The Cedars are stronger during colder times, and Decemberists only survive during the cold.

Does it always have to be winter in this small country of ours?

Wajih R. Ajouz

NB: This is the first of many articles I will be writing concerning the current events.

Part Two shall be On Democracy

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Time

"Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way
Tired of lying in the sunshine
Staying home to watch the rain
And you are young and life is long
And there is time to kill today
And then one day you find Ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run You missed the starting gun
And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you're older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death
Every year is getting shorter
Never seem to find the time Plans that either come to nought
Or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way
The time is gone
The song is over
Thought I'd something more to say

Home, home again I like to be here when I can
When I come home cold and tired
It's good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells"
-Time, Pink Floyd

Sunday, September 17, 2006

on matters and more

well...i wanted to write in arabic...but i'm in some network in tripoli at the moment.....and the pc doesnt support arabic ..(i remember writing a few poems in the network)

Anyways, its funny how this city dies quickly....its sunday 6 PM and nearly all the shops are already closed....i couldnt find a place to buy cigarettes from....i ended up buying cigarettes from a place where its reallly cheap...way cheaper than beirut.....my guess is they smuggled the stuff...

oh well, thngs are passing by slowly these days...with all the work and stuff.....i bought clothes yesterday....finally, i really hate shopping, but i no longer have any decent stuff to put on!!
my political independant group is in crisis at aub, theres a voting on monday, and if we dont get out of march 14, i'm quitting.
i dont know.....perhaps i shouldnt ....but these yasar democrati ppl are reallly getting on my nerves with their neo con crap!

hmm more to say but am not sure i want to .......i'm marketing this blog way too much to put my deepest thoughts !!
anyways ...i'll update soon i promise.....more arabic literature stuff......thinking of adding some paintings i love. ..
anyways .....
i'll be at aub all the week ..

Thursday, September 14, 2006

All Apologies

i've been working at the new students orientation program at aub ...
i do it for about 12 hours a day....by the time i get back home i'm really tired....and the internet connection at home is realllly bad ...
if u guys have anybody new coming to aub...i'll help..
lots to write ...when i'm done of that work ..

PEACE

Sunday, September 10, 2006

the russian roulette

can u manage to love and hate??
and dont know which one is ur true feeling ??
well


i figured it all out..its the same feeling....a STRONG feeling!
well ....i;m sure i know i can hate more !!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

في الأساس

هممم حسناً
لا بد لمن يتابع هذه المدونة أن يعرف بعض التفاصيل حول البضعة أشهر الماضية
عند رأس السنة قابلت فتاة معينة، وقد دخلنا سويا في علاقة جامحة في الأساس، مكثنا سويا حوالي الستة أشهر ثم تلت المصائب والإختلافات والمشاكل.
لا زلت أحبها، كما لم أعهد من قبل، رباه كم يؤلم الشعور
المهم أنني أعلم أنني كنت فظاً ووقحاً معها، ولكنني أدركت أنها هي اللأساس، وأنني أخطئت
كما أنني دخلت في علاقتين كلاهما أنهيتهما لأنني أحبها
(block list on msn)لقد سئم الأصدقاء من تذمري، كما أنها ترفضني الآن كثيرا جداً، حتى أنها وضعتني على لائحة البلوك
لا أعتقد أنني حتى أريد أن أكمل الطريق، أريدها هي، كما نجح أحدهم في الإلتصاق بصديقة لي حتى أوقعها بشركه....سأفعل الأمر نفسه
لا لا لا لست من هذا النوع....... هناك فتاةٍ أخرى في البال
يا ويلاه

حبيبتي خلف المقود

تعلمت حبيبتي, أو كانت ولا تزال، القيادة أخيراً. وهي لا تعلم كم قادتني من قبل نحو مجهولٍ ما، أو نحو طريق عبدتها بغير قصدها
تعلمت حبيبتي القيادة، وها أنا أملك الدفتر وما زلت أضيع خلف المقود وأضيع بين الشوارع المكتظة بالعاشقين، وما ألبث أن أحسدهم حتى أتوقف عن القيادة وأرمي المفاتيح بعيداً
حبيبتي تعلمت القيادة أخيراً، وحصلت على دفترها، وها هي تعاود الكرة مجدداً، تدوس على قلبي مراراً وتكمل سيرها ويعاونها الشرطي في قتلي مرتين
وها أنا أكره العسكريين وأكره السائقين وأبغض السيارات
حبيبتي خلف المقود، راحت بعيداً في قيادتها، واختارت ذات البنزين على ذي قلب وروح والتزام عاشق ما بعد الظهيرة